I am not sure there are many of us who would say they wanted to be like John the Baptist. He lived in the wild, wore camels skin and ate locusts. But, after reading one of the devotions on shereadstruth during this advent season, we should all reconsider wanting to be like John. Not so much in the physical ways he lived, but in his love for his calling and His Lord. Zechariah, John's father, prophesied about John's life in Luke 1:76-77 "And you, child, will be called the prophet of the Most High; for you will go before the Lord to prepare his ways, to give knowledge of salvation to his people in the forgiveness of their sins". John was going to be a "way-paver" for Jesus Christ. The writer of this devotion questions whether John the Baptist ever lamented his calling or wished his could have "passed the torch" to someone else.
After reading this days devotion, I could understand if there were days that John the Baptist wanted pass the torch to someone else. I have had that same feeling many times in the last 2 months. I do not say this to make anyone feel sorry or pity for me, but I do want to let you all in during this hard time. While this pregnancy has not be what I pictured my first pregnancy to be like, I know and believe that God has something bigger planned. A verse my mom has recently been sharing with me has been 2 Cor. 4:18 "So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." This verse has come up on more than one occasion in the last two weeks.
Last Monday was my first appointment with a specialist. Jordan had some meetings at work, so mom and I went to this appointment together. I was really looking forward to getting some more information and hoping for a doctor that would help us get to where we needed to be in this pregnancy. I am not going to go into a ton of details about this appointment just to be respectful. But, there was a miscommunication with some of my records not being sent over, and why exactly I was at this appointment. I was being treated like a first time patient and not at all like I have a high risk pregnancy. There were lots of frustrations and we left with a lot more questions that we went in with. However, I was told by the doctor that the least amount of movement and travel the better. So, my modified bed rest became a little more strict. I could still get up and use the restroom, but I didn't need to take any stairs or drive anywhere. Thankfully this news came a day after we were able to travel to Lexington to celebrate Christmas with Jordan's family. We were also able to stay with my parents house over the holidays which was such a blessing. I didn't want to have to miss out on Christmas or worry about having tons of family in our small condo. It was also nice to have some more help since I really couldn't walk around and get things for myself.
After Monday, the following days were pretty uneventful. I would pray every night to just have a few good days during Christmas so that I could enjoy my family and celebrate the coming of our Savior. The Lord was sweet to answer those prayers. But the Friday after Christmas I had an episode of bleeding that was more than I had seen before. I wasn't having any cramps or a fever, so I just laid down in bed and prayed that everything would be ok. Thankfully the bleeding slowed down, but I was still so worried what the next few days had in store. I took it even easier than before the next couple of days and tried to increase my fluids as much as possible.
Throughout the week, Jordan and I looked into getting another specialist's opinion but weren't quite sure where to look. We have some good family friends that knew another specialist here in town and he was able to get the doctors phone number and set up a time for me to call him. So, Sunday afternoon we called the doctor and he wanted me to come in first thing Monday morning.
After this appointment, things were about to change drastically. Part two coming soon with more details about the events following Monday.
Thank you so much for your continued prayers and sweet messages I have received.
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